leia131 | To Maryanne Gillen

Explaination: I have this weird habit of finding songs that say what I am thinking, or that relate to what has happened in my life, or whatever is on my mind. So I am going to post some lyric snippets here.

A Tribute to a Girl I Hardly Knew:

Think of me, think of me fondly
When we've said goodbye
Remember me, once in a while
Please promise me you'll try...

If you ever find a moment
Stop, and think of me...

Please promise me that sometimes
You will think of me.

"Think of Me" from Phantom of the Opera

You don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

"Welcome to my Life" by Simple Plan

Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees...

I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

"One Headlight" by the Wallflowers

Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this problem

I'm talking to the ceiling
My life just lost all meaning
Do one thing for me tonight
I'm dying in this silence

The last star left in Heaven is fallen down to Earth

And I'll miss your laugh your smile

Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)

I'm so lost
I'm barely here

Various songs by Blink 182, because they're music is the music of my soul.

I hope this helps someone, because it certainly helps me. And I never spoke more than two words to Maryanne, but that doesn't make me any less sad. She was a beautiful person, and she had a human life that is no more, and that deserves grief and tears. No one can tell you that just because you didn't know her well you have no right to cry.

However, we must not stop living just because someone else did. Anyone, not just Maryanne. Life goes on, the world still turns. So mourn, but then focus on the good things they accomplished in their lives.

Thank you.