Eww

[leia131]

Sorry, I'm having icon ADD again. Expect frequent icon changes in the near future.

I have to have a serious journal entry for a minuet. I've been feeling really off lately, like I want things or want to do things that no one else wants to do, and I don't know why. Also, I desperately want to read and finish the stories I am writing, but whenever I have a free moment I seem to be on the computer or watching tv...

I just feel like I'm in an awful funk and I don't know what to do.

And, I got a 74 on my Calc test, and I know none of you are going to quite understand what that means in terms of my life, but it's bad. Trust me. And I can't possibly do anything more to bring up my grade in Calc. I go to class, I pay attention, I take notes, I do the homework, I study, and I still can't manage to get back up to the A I used to have. WTF?

HUGE SIGH

I just want high school to end and college never to begin. Is that so much to ask?

Because I am also stressing about the overnight at St. Michael's this weekend, which I am dreading. And I know that I'm going to have to spend every night there eventually, but it'll be in my own room, (well, with a roommate but still at least partly my own room) and it'll just be different and I don't wanna go.

I DONT WANNA GO TO COLLEGE!!!!!!!!

I just hate this. All of it. Anything that involves the word school or class or test or quiz.

But I don't hate any of you, and I won't care if you don't even read this, because I know it's long and boring and stupid.

But I feel slightly better now.